The Toe Truth & nothing but the Truth!

I must apologize for the lack of consistency...to ALL 3 of my followers!...I’ve been totally off my game and am just now able to get caught up. Since my last posting, we had Spring Break with the kids, Hosted Easter Brunch at our House, and my husband got all up in his surf board's biznak and was needed extra TLC from all of us. {For those who didn't know you can check it all out on the other blog I was inspired to create because of the incident http://www.1eyedhatfield.blogspot.com/ }

 Ok..now back to the truth.  Well, I think this picture is profoundly honest.  When asked where my daughter (who's all of 20 months old) wanted her band-aid...she was very clear with her instructions "ik mommy's toe". Great, that's just super.  She's obviously seen me applying bandages to my toe enought times to make a solid connection.  I even tryied to put it on her leg, or arm...because we were just pretending anyway...but she insisted that it be on the toe!  Yes, I get it...I see how God uses our kids to speak to us & teach us the stuff we don't even want to see. 

Truth #2:  I don't just pick on the left one.  Both of my big toes are in jepordy! 
Truth #3:  I don't totally believe it’s about anxiety. I understand it with my mind and know that it sounds good on paper but I don't feel the connections yet. Maybe because I enjoy the picking/probing process so much that it doesn't seem possible for it to be linked with something so negative. I'm doing a good thing, I’m "helping" my toe get better.... but I just believe in the old adage that it has to get worse before it gets better.... right?
Truth #4: It's also about control. (Which is totally linked to anxiety when you feel you have none!...again all of this I know in my brain but still haven't connected any real feelings to yet...it's easy for me to detach and separate my feelings from mind)
Here's a nice list of some of the things that seem to spiral out of my control:
· my weight

· my time

· my energy

· my schedule

· my spiritual growth

· did I mention my time?

· the people around me that invade my life with toxic attitudes or behaviors

Once again...I know it's not completely true - that these elements are not totally out of control - they just get exagerated from time to time because my scales are off as a whole!  Most of those items can be regulated by choices i make ...however, i do believe that the bigger point is arriving at a place of acceptance for being out of control in general and learning how to roll with the punches.  Less of me, myself & I....and more leaning on my Jesus for balance.